trugged up hurt feelings

So i have come to the conclusion that blogging is my new best friend. As i am now about to write about an old best friend who i told everything to but is no longer in the picture as stated in former blogs. Since i have noone who understands why i still feel hurt about this particular person when i should let it go after it's almost been a year, i will blog my feelings out in venting and wondering form to try to get it all out once again.

My former best friend Stephanie has hurt me in so many way in the past year. From the closest joined at the hip friends you would ever meet, to people that don't even talk or tell huge bits of news to. For instance, i just found out via facebook, that she is now engaged to the person she quit college and threw away her future for. It's been a little over a year now that they've been dating and not even half a year since they've been living together. I don't know if it's just me, but i think that's awfully soon to be already engaged. But she's always been the type to rush head first into relationships because they could be "the one". She's cheated and lied to boyfriends before and always been desperate for a boyfriend. So it makes sense that she's run head long at him not wanting to loose him. I'm just concerned. She's only just turned 19 and statistically their marraige won't last. In fact, statistically not only their ages are against them but it's proven that couples that live together before marraige are more likely to get divorced.

I guess the main thing about this whole situation is, that it's been exactly a year since she started keeping things from me, huge important things in her life from me while still claiming we were best friends. She's freakin engaged and of course she wouldn't tell the one person that was her best friend most of high school or her co-worker for a couple years or lived with for a summer/ That would be weird! why on earth would she tell someone that 'important' to her something so ginormous in their life.
I doubt i'll even get a wedding invite.

I mean i'm not some loosser that had no other friends to take her place. in fact i've got friends closer to me now than steph and i ever were. True non backstabbing friends. but steph and i went through so much growing together and its hard to discard that even though she seems to have without a backward glance.

I know anyone reading would say to just let it go, and i've tried, really hard i've tried.
At least i have my friends, my Alpha Phi sisters, my amazing boyfriend(who i love but wouldn't throw away my future and education for,) and my God-son. So i'm hoping these opened up wounds will close back up and i can stop being a whiner.