Straaaaange Things are happenin to Me

So, apart from completing an amazing 9 months with my amazing boyfriend, and seeing my adorable nephew grow and become cuter, there are still amazing things going on around me.
If that makes sense.
I have been student teaching once a week to a 6th grade class and am in love with it. I'm so meant to be a teacher.
My friendships are building up and I feel more like I belong where I'm at.
I'm not really sure where my "home" is right now. My mom lives in Columbus, my dad a little further up north, and the whole rest of my family further up north with my boyfriend.
I guess I do not have one. I have places to stay, sure. But an actual place I call home? Don't have one.
I don't feel entirely comfortable at my dad's. The room I stay in is too much my step-mom for me to ever feel entirely comfortable.
When I stay at my brother's, it's the futon in my nieces room or the bed with my mother. Both not great prospects.
Staying with my cousin is nice, and I love seeing my little "nephew" but again, it's not my own place.
Wow as corny as it sounds, the Carrie Underwood song came to mind-Temporary Home.




Anyways, I'm not sure what God has for me, I'm believin that I'll have my own place to call home some day in the near future, preferably with a certain hubby by my side. I must wait patiently for his will to come through. His timing is what matters, not mine.

Crazy New Beginnings?

New Beginnings. Well I guess this should be about them because I titled this Blog as such. For me and my mom this is a new beginning. Sure every time we've ever moved (9 diff school districts k-12) its been because of money. Yep Eviction mostly. This time it's a bit different in a lot of aspects.
1st being that i'm at college this time. Therefore unable to pack my own stuff up and organize it to my liking and location.
see, I'll basically be moving in with my dad and (evil) step mom with most of my stuff in storage. My mom, she's moving in with my older brother, his wife and their 5 children. Yep, that makes 8 people in one house. The sad thing is, Danny (the oldest brother) said he's expected to take care of my mom at one point or another. She's a bit ditzy and doesn't understand what money "Management" means. balancing a checkbook? She's never heard the term. So i've been forced my entire life to leave the places I just begin to get comfortable at because of money. Moving now is the only difference. I've never gone to a school longer than 2 years. I went from 8th- graduation where we're moving from now which is basically the most important years. All the memories and places i'm used to will now have to be changed to 1 or 2 hours south. I have to leave my amazing job i've had for 3 years and now have no idea where i'll work for money.

The second difference is that this move isn't all about money or eviction. There isn't even an eviction. My mom lost her license again, yea again, with tons of fines, a lawsuit, unpaid bills, and shut off notices, there is no way she could stay there with no way of going to work. She had to face reality at some point.

The point to this long tirade of woe me! Is that i'm not entirely upset about this. Of course at first a bawled for days at the prospect of being away from the love of my life, my adorable God-son who is growing so fast, and all my close family.
But I know this is happening for a reason. I know for a fact something in this is God's plan. He has brought me to far to let me fall down by some small obstacle.

So in all this, I'm excited. Who knows what will happen, where i'll end up, but I do know it's in God's hands and i'm taken care of.

Haiti

I am not just writing about how terrible the disaster in Haiti is because anyone whose anyone knows how terrible the disaster is in Haiti. Duh it's a disaster. The topic I want to write about is my heart and how it often yearns for the week i spent there in 2007 in Destiny Village. Destiny is a safe haven our church has created that is an orphanage which takes care of over 30 children. These children have pure God-seeking hearts and are the sweetest. I want to, so incredibly badly want to return. If God opens a door for me, i'll be there.
Just another thought, that does involve the earthquake, just on a more personal level. I have seen Haiti before this happened, it wasn't much to look at. Tin shacks set up hardly resembling structures could never stand up to such a powerful earthquake. It breaks my heart thinking back then and seeing the devastation. What can we possibly do to help them. They've not even quite recovered from their last disaster.
Praying is the only sure fire thing I cant think of. It's powerful if you mean it. It can move mountains. I mean I think i heard somewhere that the money Haiti was getting for disaster relief is more than what New Orleans and areas affected by Katrina got.
God's moving in that country, and they can rise from the ashes, i know it. As for our nation? prophets are already prophesying duplicate earthquakes for major cities in the US like Los Angeles. only time will tell.

My thoughts, mumbled and jumbled on the page.

My Love Story

God has written my love story. Through my love toward the man he placed in my life to be my husband one day, I have fallen even deeper in love with my savior. The greatest love story ever told is about me. There's not much to say on this because anything I want to say wouldn't be close enough to how I feel.

New Semester, New Opportunities

Well, i'm officially starting a new fresh semester tomorrow, and my nerves are getting the best of me. Last semester left me leaving hopless and feeling like effort was meaningless. I gave up having a life Fall semester in order to work hard as humanly possible. All to waste apparently because my all wasn't near enough. So now I feel like trying meaningless and this semester will leave me feeling as hopless as before.

On the other hand. It is a fresh start. I feel rested up from break, I had a terrific time with family and work, but I miss my best friend already. Being with someone constantly and then going cold turkey is hard, and i'm really drawing on strength from God to stand it. I have a busy semester ahead, with Alpha Phi, tutoring, student teaching, extracurricular's and 6 classes.
I can do it...i know i can. God didn't lead me this far to leave me alone. He's here.
I can make it.

When God Writes Your Love Story

I am like a deer, you are like the water.
I run to you, like a son to his father.
I felt so alone, like a moth without a flame,
But you ignited, and to You I came,
And that's forever.

I felt so alone like ship without a sea.
But you gave me water,
You took my hand and said to me,
"This is for eternity."

I'll never be lonely,
I'll never be lonely with You.
I've got this feeling that You're here to stay,
And I know I'll never be lonely with You.

Finishing a stressful semester

Well, my sophomore fall semester is coming to a close. Definitely my most stressful yet which makes me ecstatic to be done with it. A month vacation is looming two weeks ahead and I cannot wait. Finals and projects, and presentations yet to come, but i can get through it and God is taking all stress from me. Most likely my last Blog till next semester so....
I'm keepin it short this time,
Shelle