Just Rambeling

So, onto a new year, my sophomore year of college to be exact, and i'm enjoying every minute of it. Well, every minute I've been here. This means i've been at school for over a week and i've only been to two days of classes. Now before you think i'm skipping classes, i'm not. I only have tues/thurs classes. The reason i missed a day was because of a very good reason, my best friend had her baby last tuesday. I got the call at 4:40am and left almost immediately for the 1 hr 15 min drive to the hospital. Only to find that she didn't have him until 1:50 am on wednesday. I was with her through it all, except for a couple hours when i picked up my boyfriend, or the 45 mins she was having her emergency c-section.
Okay, the thing i'm getting too is that, this school year has only just begun, and i feel behind. On sleep, on reading, on catching up with my friends, i'm completely missing my boyfriend. Well i may be caught up with my reading, and i do get to spend all weekend with my BF, but i'm sleepy all the time. staying up a few nights and barely getting sleep really pushed me back. But ENOUGH whining, i'm sickening myself. The point, again, that i'm trying to make is that, i have a feeling this year is going to be different. Not neccssarily in a bad way either. I've got favor with God, a positive attitude except for my random bouts of negitivity, a supportive boyfriend, a new God-Son, and a new attitude on life. This summer was amazing for my spiritual walk, without these changes, i would be the same dry, negative person I was before May. I turn 20 next month, and it seems to be the perfect time for me to leave my teens. Now i've always felt older than my age, my experiences are to blame for that, but that doesn't mean anything to the world. to reach that golden age of 20, two whole decades, just seems so right at the moment. FINALLY! people may start treating me like an adult, as if my 17 yr old cousin who's looked older than me since she was 14 and i was 16, just having a baby didn't help.
Anyway, i do believe i've rambeled a rediculous amount already about nothing. But as my favorite band says in my boyfriends favorite song "let it all out, get it out, remove it."

Year of Trials

With my Freshman year of college ending, it's natural to reflect on things that happened throughout the year. Obviously not everything was good, but not everything was bad either.

First off let's start at the very beginning. Summer time. I would say the very best summer I can remember. Mainly because my best friend and I spent almost all our time together and she even lived with me for half the summer. We were so alike and best friends for 3 years. She unfortunately was not the best kind of friend. I just never listened to the advice of other people around me. She was a taker and it wasn't until college that i actually understood that she was just using me. Now you would think that as best friends, we would keep in touch quite often at least once a week and talk about our new lives at different colleges. But this was not the case. She pretty much began to ignore me and i found out through facebook that major changes were happening in her life and she obviously didn't want to share them with me. For example, she joined a sorority, cool and all, but she never told me or called me once about it. Ok maybe not a big deal. Another thing, she got a boyfriend. This is all within the first month of college. Some might think i am overexaggerating because she was probable too busy to think about calling me. But come on! An entire month with no word from her and major happenings in her life that she doesn't want to share with me. So this is when i pieced together all that my other friends and family were trying to tell me about her. She was only using me and once we were hours apart at different colleges i wasn't there and she didn't need me anymore.
Basically i can look at it two ways, college stole my best friends, or college revealed the truth about her. Huge events that i struggled with the first semester and that's not the end of it.

But i believe i've vented enough for now, i will be back with more on my first year later! give me your thoughts

Introduction

I am currently attending Ashland University, finishing up my freshman year.
This year has been fun and exciting but it also contained a lot of crap that i would have rather lived without. These are the reasons i decided to start this blog. I feel like i have no one to talk to so i thought i would let everything out through this.
Any advice or encouragement is welcome.
Look for my first post sometime soon with more details on my life and my thoughts.
Mishellers